Up and Down like a Yo-Yo

  I know it sounds so cliche but that is literally my day today; up and down like a yo-yo. I had a fantastic run after work today and if you would have told me that I would be running right now 5 years ago I would be doubled over, hysterically laughing at you. It just makes me feel so much better. Nothing is more satisfying then a nice long run to calm the nerves and clear the mind. I feel so accomplished and sweaty at the end it just makes me feel so happy.
  I had received my new phone in the mail today as well, a couple days early which I was ecstatic about. After about 15 minutes of being on hold to activate my phone they finally picked up and completely ruined my good mood. Apparently since I'm not the account holder I unfortunately couldn't activate the phone. Which is such complete bologna. Aaron and I went to the cell phone store and set it up where I would be able to make decisions on our cell phones before he left. Yea, apparently not so much. I feel so sorry for the guy that was helping me, I know it wasn't his fault and he was just doing his job but I was just so frustrated. I explained to him that Aaron was currently at bootcamp and there was no way he could call to activate my phone. He preceded to ask me multiple times that I was sure I couldn't reach Aaron before I just finally lost and it and might have accidentally got a little rude and explained to him that apparently he didn't realize what bootcamp meant and I unfortunately couldn't have my husband call since I couldn't even call him if I wanted to unless I felt was an emergency and called the red cross and I really don't think upgrading my phone was considered an emergency and then I hung up. I know, I'm awesome.
  It wouldn't be such a big deal besides the fact that my current phone likes to restart in a middle of a conversation which is the last thing I want when Aaron calls.
  So I hung my head in defeat and bought wine and Water For Elephants and accepted my defeat. You win some, you lose some and I'm chalking today up as a lost and calling it done.
35 days. 35 long stinking days probably filled with a ton of more yo-yo days.


Sidenote: I was able to go into the store the next day and they were very happy to activate the phone for me. Thank goodness.

A Heavy Heart

As I was laying in bed this morning and watching the snow fall outside my window I was craving to have Aaron by my side to be enjoying the peacefulness of the first real snowfall of the season. Tomorrow will mark the 2nd week that he has been gone. They first week is actually week 0, it doesn't even count toward the 8 weeks he will be gone. It sure counted to me. I miss him like crazy and every single day feels like a lifetime. Living without my husband has been difficult I feel like I'm 18 again and venturing out into the world without anyone by my side, timid to do things by myself and cautious to venture too far outside of my front door. It's like I lost my right arm, I don't exactly need it but I feel like I am having to relearn how to do everything all over again. You never realize how much you depend on someone till they aren't around anymore. He's just gone and everyday I feel like I'm just waiting around for him to come back.
I hope things will go back to normal and that I lose the feeling of just waiting around. I hope my motivation to get stuff done will return very soon. School will start next month and I will have plenty of no time to sit around and worry about it.

As unhappy as I may be in moments and how heavy my heart may feel I know it will ONLY be for a short amount of time in the long run of things. I have plenty of things to keep me busy and I get to eat whatever I want right now without Aaron yelling at me for having cereal for 2 out of the 3 meals of the day. I know I am beyond blessed to be married to my soulmate and best friend. I have a wonderful support system with my family and his as well. Aaron is an amazing husband, brother, son and friend. I am so proud of him for sacrificing his time away from friends and family to create the future that we want for ourselves and our future family.