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My Darling Son,
It is truly hard to believe you are already a month old already, though at the same time it's hard to believe that it's only been such a short amount of time. I feel so blessed to be able to take the time to soak up so many moments with you. I love having you curled up on my chest, soaking in your baby smell and memorizing every small detail of you. I hate moving after you have fallen asleep on me. I don't know how mama's get anything done.
To be honest the first couple of weeks with you were hard. Adjusting to motherhood was very overwhelming. I had emotions that I was completely unprepared for and it left me a little more scared than I wanted to be. Nursing has been such a challenge that had me feeling insufficient as a mother. I was crying just as much as you were. Now I feel like we are kind of-sort of getting the hang of it. Kind of. My momma meltdowns have officially slowed down at least. I find myself constantly wishing I knew what you were thinking to make our rough days a little smoother.
You have gained 2 pounds though and weigh a whole 9 pounds and have grown an inch and a half. You are finally fitting into your 0-3 month clothing which I'm super excited about. I was warned that you were going to be a big baby so I skipped on buying a lot of newborn clothes turns out you weren't as big as they thought. Your hair is starting to lighten up and has a slight curl to it after a bath. You have changed so much already.
When you are on your changing table you become startled and throw your little fists up in the air and do this horrible whimper with the most heartbreaking unhappy face that makes me feel like a horrible person for changing your diaper. Bath time is pretty much the same. You positively hate it and I really hope that changes in the near future. You absolutely love being outside though.It always amazes me when we settle you into your car seat fussing and as soon as we are out the door you instantly stop. You are already so curious, it's such a wonder to watch you look around and try to take everything in. You also love music. Anytime I start playing music your eyes get huge and you listen so intently.
My heart aches with so much love for you my darling boy. You are perfect, more than I could have ever imagined. I love you so much baby boy and I'm so excited about all the adventures we will have together.
Thank you for making me a mama.
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